This evening I went to the lip sync competition on Duck Pond field. RUF was awesome. Just sayin. However I witnessed something sad while I was there! We sat next to a group of people who were sneakily drinking (well, some of them.) It was a few girls and a few guys who seemed to be dating each other. One guy had a leg deformity and he walked with crutches, but he wasn't scrawny or anything. He was sitting in this girls lap so I assumed that they were dating. They just acted like it. However, when I looked closer, the guy next to this girl was kinda leaning all in her space and putting his arm sneakily near her butt behind her back. She had both men that player. haha I think that guy had a girl sitting in his lap too. These people are confused...

Me me me me me me me

I have not blogged in a while! So, I apologize to my loyal multitude of avid followers. I have a few things on my mind right now to share with you:

1. I am going to Africa this summer and my heart is overjoyed. I have never been out of the country, and my entire summer will revolve around this week and a half trip. I really want the right attitude as I go to serve the people of Gabon. Short term trips get a lot of crap, but I think God can work through whatever he wants. I have a fear/excitement of God calling me into full time missions. Just throwing that out there.

2. I think I am a complainer. I have a billion first world problems. Just a preview of the ridiculousness:

• I HATE buffering. Hate it. So frustrating.
• Now that I have bangs I can't shower at night or my bangs stick out. (Darn 50$ hair cut!)
• After lunch every day I am super full and tired and I just want to sleep.
• I don't like studying.
• The internet is a huge distraction.
• I hate unpacking, and I still haven't unpacked from Fall Break.
• Sometimes I have a hard time falling asleep cause the light from the street lights seeps through my blinds.

I am embarrassed at how fast those all came to my mind! I am sure that is not even all! Just an honest observation of myself. I should be great at those because I realized that I think about myself all the time. It is just sickening.

This weekend I went on a retreat and it was exactly what I needed. Sometimes all I need to do is think and process what is going on it my life and what God wants me to do. This weekend all I did was talk and think about that. I had no homework and no obligations. There is something relieving about being able to talk about everything that is going on in your life with people and realizing that they feel the same way. I also love hearing other people's stories about how God worked in their life. It reminds me that, although I need to seek His will, if I screw up He has full power to pull me back (however forcefully) into His will. Blah blah I could write everything that I learned, processed, and talked about, but my mind is now shot. It needed to happen, but I do not feel like analyzing anything! So I am going to take a nap, and I am going to give all my worries, cares, and stresses to God :)