The World's End

Wouldn't it be great if it was judgment day today? Sometimes I am so ready to be free from all this confusion and sadness. I want God to once and for all rip me away from all of the stupid things I hold on to. I know I can be free from those things on earth, but I always turn back. I want to be chained to God forever so I can't run away in pursuit of stupid things. The blood of Christ has atoned for my sins. Woohoo!

Epiphany: I mean this non literally.

Guys and girls clash and mesh at the same time.

Worry and Striving

When things happen to me I want to stop trying to fix them and ask myself, how is God using this to make me more like him. I mean, sometimes things suck, but really in the end everything is going to be alright. Worrying and striving is pointless. It doesn't change anything except out attitudes, and it doesn't change them in a good way.

I am a pretty trusting person by nature. From when I was tiny I believed that Jesus was my Savior. I know that is true. However, I struggle so much to try to make my life perfect and worry free that I worry myself to death. (Not literally, yet.) If I know that everything is going to be alright, that God has my days numbered, that worrying is pointless, then why do I do it?

Crum.

I am trying to understand what back button focus is on my camera and I am so confused.. cameras are so complicated!

Last Night

Last night, around 3am, some upstanding individuals got drunk and decided to set of fireworks right behind our dorm. It scared the crumcake out of me. I woke up and looked out the window just in time to hear everyone yell, "Shut the eff up!" out of their windows. I quietly said, "Yeah! Be quiet!" I am pretty sure they yelled back, "No you shut the eff up!"

That is my story. The end!

PS. This is the censored version.

My birthday present to myself: do work like nobodies business, ace all my classes, and get to summer. This is a hard gift...

My birthday present to everyone else: try to not think about myself. I am a prideful human being.

I misssssss this!

Happy Things

Sometimes I just like to make a list of happy things. It makes me happy. So...

• 15 more classes, 2.5 weeks, 11 days
• Easter
• My family (minus padre.. sad) is coming to visit me!
• Lovely weather
• I made a cake with Shannon.
• The Jane Eyre movie (only half happy because I have to wait for it to come somewhere near me..)
• My 19th birthday!
• The few weeks of rest I get after school.
• 5/6 weeks until camp!
• Nice dorm next year.
• AND MUCH MORE :)

Apparently I enjoy putting unattractive pictures of myself on my blog, but really Lauren is the star of this one anyway ;)