Living is a tricky thing. So are emotions and feelings. Sometimes it's hard to determine between what feels right and what is right. I'm pretty sure that we, as humans, have an uncanny ability to trick ourselves. We can justify any action, maybe even by twisting scripture. It's easy to see where you screwed up when it's all over. Probably, cause when we aren't trying to justify our actions with God's words, we are free to see what they really mean. I have an inflated view of myself. I need God. (I say that and I know that in my head, but do I really believe it?) Man, I am so human.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. --Matthew 6:33